Monthly Archive: September 2015

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Envy and Self-Deprecation

This especially rears its ugly head when it comes to creativity. That may be part of the problem in getting over my blocks that keep standing in my way. Beyond that though, in day to day life, I STILL think I’m inferior to other people. No matter how far I’ve come I can’t let go the delusion that I’m a deformed little boy. I think; I don’t have personality, I don’t have interests, passions, or hobbies, I don’t have creative spark and inspiration, everything I make is dead in the water, everything I do is boring, nobody’s going to like my game so… why make it?

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Holy Crap! Wait, What?

Oh my god, six days went by! How the heck did that happen? I got sick these last six days so that was part of it. One day I woke up at three in the afternoon, which is pretty intense for me (though not as intense as it has been before). My sinuses were clogged, and I thought it was a sinus infection, so I went to the Little Clinic.

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Touch, I

I’ve been thinking about things for a while, in the times I haven’t posted. I was thinking about how sometimes I get caught up in this idea that I have to do something in order for life to be acceptable. What I mean is, I obsess about doing something, and getting that thing done that I let other things in life go.

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Yo Bebo Agua

      We learned about -ar verbs in Spanish class. This is one of few I remember. Homework involves -ir and -er. Doing okay in class! My education continues to surprise me.

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Another Day, Another Coffee

One time Maus found this graphic and posted it on Facebook. It said generally, “I don’t really plan my days in advance. It’s just coffee and strangeness my friend, coffee and strangeness.” He said this was my line, and he was so right. My days are filled with coffee and strangeness. I forget how strange my life is sometimes, because I regard a lot of ‘strange’ things as normal. I don’t think I’m really that strange, I think I’m pretty run of the mill, but Maus points out that I don’t get out often.